Wednesday, September 26, 2012

everyone needs that one person who will always make them feel better; heres to introducing mine;



                  Marilyn Monroe is, always has been, always will be, my biggest inspiration. 



 

I know, I know, cliché as fuck, but sometimes you can't help but love the same thing that millions of other people love. 
If I was committed to being too hipster for the rest of the world and only loving that what everybody doesn't know about yet, I simply would have no spare time. 
It just requires too much research. 
I'll let the hipsters discover the next big thing since coffee for me, I don't mind waiting.









 (cool kids rant aside;)
Not only was she the most beautiful woman to ever walk the earth, her attitude is everything I aspire to be; she is a beautiful and proud woman, sexy and open about her sexuality, she is cute, girly and playful, and miraculously pulling all those things off together, plus on top of that she is somehow badass as fuck.





Like I said, EVERYTHING I aspire to be.

No matter how I am feeling, she always has something to make me feel better about life or myself.







"This life is what you make it. 

Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. 
But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up.

 Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. 
But just remember, some come, some go. 
The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. 

Don't let go of them!

Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. 

As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. 
And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. 
You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. 


Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. 
Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? 





 

 So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”




MM <3

Monday, September 24, 2012

Money can't buy happiness, but boy does it help out a whole lot!

It's amazing that its been a month since I've written anything at all.

It's also amazing that its been over that amount of time that I've done anything really.
My whole life feels like its on hold, I haven't seen my friends, I have no way of escaping.


I knew once I quit my old job and started uni things would be hard for me, but I never imagined what I am going through now.
I've never been more scared in my life.

I have close to no money, and three times what I have I owe in bills. I'm in a horrid spiraling mess and I can't see the light.


I gave it all up to finally go to uni; to study means I can't work as much.
Because I am ineligible for government help it means I have to dedicate every second I have off to working which means I have absolutely no time for friends unless it is 4am after work (really, ask them!)
Because I work so much all through the night, I need the rest of the time to sleep!
Because I am so exhausted from work, I am falling behind in uni.
Because of the no money situation, I need all those hours at work to survive.. 

...and around it goes.

On top of that, I also need to move house within the next month, and cannot find anywhere to live!




I hate that I'm using my much loved blog to vent out some steam, but life is in no way fair.







I hate to admit it, but it seems like the freedom I felt before was just security disguised in a way that was meant to make me not feel guilty that money really was the thing that made me happy after all.

What an awful lesson to learn, thanks a bunch 2012.