Money can't buy happiness, but boy does it help out a whole lot!

It's amazing that its been a month since I've written anything at all.

It's also amazing that its been over that amount of time that I've done anything really.
My whole life feels like its on hold, I haven't seen my friends, I have no way of escaping.


I knew once I quit my old job and started uni things would be hard for me, but I never imagined what I am going through now.
I've never been more scared in my life.

I have close to no money, and three times what I have I owe in bills. I'm in a horrid spiraling mess and I can't see the light.


I gave it all up to finally go to uni; to study means I can't work as much.
Because I am ineligible for government help it means I have to dedicate every second I have off to working which means I have absolutely no time for friends unless it is 4am after work (really, ask them!)
Because I work so much all through the night, I need the rest of the time to sleep!
Because I am so exhausted from work, I am falling behind in uni.
Because of the no money situation, I need all those hours at work to survive.. 

...and around it goes.

On top of that, I also need to move house within the next month, and cannot find anywhere to live!




I hate that I'm using my much loved blog to vent out some steam, but life is in no way fair.







I hate to admit it, but it seems like the freedom I felt before was just security disguised in a way that was meant to make me not feel guilty that money really was the thing that made me happy after all.

What an awful lesson to learn, thanks a bunch 2012.