Aussie and proud

Happy Australia Day!!

This might be another one of my favorite days of the year I think.
While I may not be a stubby wearing, VB drinking, AFL obsessed bogan like so many, I still freakin' love my country and love the day that reminds me of how much fun I have here.
I love everything about it, our culture, the people and most of all, our attitude.
I'm not an arrogant person and think that my country 'is the best in the world', and I'm certainly not oblivious to the corruption we have in our government (But then again, what country doesn't?)
All I'm saying is I love it and grateful to be here.

I have written before that I love Christmas, even though I'm not religious, because in my mind, its just a dedicated day to family. Well, I guess that is why I love Australia Day; we all get the day off work, and its a dedicated day to drinking, listening to tunes and hanging out with friends.




Besides, lets face it; bogan or not, we all secretly want to get drunk around the BBQ, cover ourselves in stick on tattoos and wear flags as superhero capes once in a while.
Whether you admit it or not ;)




I'm spending my day at my house, where I am the only Aussie! I live with Irish, Italians and English so I'm going to show them how it's done of course; BBQ, drinks, stick on tattoos, flags as capes and lots of laughs is no doubt going down, all with our radios turned up nice and loud with Triple J's Hottest 100.
I secretly like spending Australia Day knowing everyone in the country is doing EXACTLY the same thing. It was a comforting thought when I lived overseas too.


I hope all you hipsters aren't too bitter today. Take off your fake clear Raybans, get out the green and gold body paint and take a load off being too trendy for Australia Day. We don't have it all that bad here :)




Happy Australia Day!
Xo

Some happy snaps of my house.

12:14am

I stayed out last night till around 8am, so slept most of today, and had a rather sluggish afternoon.
I didn't really feel like going anywhere so I took some pictures of some of my favorite features and little treasures around my home to share with the world:
Enjoy.

Very cute right? I love where I live.


Sweetest of dreams and goodnight little friends.
Xo

I'll always want to be somewhere else in the world.

I'm sitting in my bedroom of my little Melbourne cottage.
I can see everything in my semi-untidy room; my unmade bed, my desk with my empty dinner plate and my shoes next to my bed, lying on their side after being drunkenly kicked off at 8am this morning.

It's got me thinking about my life right now.
For the record; I like it.

Living away from my old life was the best thing I could have done for myself.
I needed the distance from who I had let myself become, and a chance to start again where I left off.
I have complete confidence in who I am as a person now, I know I am back to how I was meant to be and I'm the happiest I have ever been.
Even though I feel like a sell out, living in amongst the rat race, scampering about in suits, I'm still learning things about myself and my life every single day.






But I was never meant to stay in one place.
I'm a traveler at heart and I've always known it.

I'm missing the never ending tide of like-minded people I meet, every character I have ever met leaves a mark, some small and some absolutely life changing.
Most never even know it.


I'm missing the simplicity.
Living out of a dirty old backpack, only having with you the things you need, and those few little treasures and trinkets you carry with you.
I look around my room now and can see that the moment I stay put and unpack my bags, the purposeless junk starts to pile up.
Life looses its simplicity - things seem complicated.





Having said all that, I do know I need to stay grounded for a while.

It was something my Dad wanted me to do. He always told me to study/set up what your going to do with your life first, travel after.
I broke his rule, but only because I honestly had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, other than see the world - there was no point waiting around for some inspiration to drop into my lap.

Even though I am sitting in my room, dreaming about my next adventure; I do know that, for now, Melbourne is my adventure.
It may not be one that I need a day pack and flight tickets for, but it will be just as exciting and enlightening. The early days of this chapter have already proven that.



I also know this longing to be somewhere else in the world is a feeling I'll have for life, no matter where I am.
I know my heart will always belong to the world I haven't seen
But I'm determined to stay and see what life has in store for me in this chapter.
Whether I'm living out of my dirty old backpack or not, I guess I'm still traveling along.

Take what you learn and let it go

12:47am

Do you want to know a secret?



I think I may have fallen in love at the end of 2011.

Okay, so perhaps not love.
But if it wasn't love, it was something very cleverly disguised as such.






I met someone who was absolutely everything I love about the human race. An example of all the good things we can be, if we want too.
He inspired me, which at the end of the day, is all I want somebody to do for me.



I only saw him for a day. Crazy huh? But boy, did he leave me smitten.
I've never met anyone like him in my life.

His entire outlook on life is unlike any of the people I have ever been around. He had been through similar rough patches in life to me, and understood things that most of my friends don't.
Because of what he had been through, he was optimistic and just happy to be where he was. Exactly the same as me. I love people who just want to enjoy life.




This was around 2 months ago.
It is only tonight that I've decided I need to snap the hell out of it.


I was thinking the world was playing a cruel trick on me.
Sending me this person, making me smitten beyond doubt, only to take him away after one day.




But I've decided to find the bright side (it's always there people!) and I've come to the conclusion;
Mother Nature was teaching me a lesson.

We all know I got my heart broken last year.

Since being single, I've been out with a few different boys, most of which were just not my type. I just didn't seem to meet anyone who I genuinely clicked with.

I didn't really feel like somebody was out there who would ever make me fall in love as much as my first time around.




So She sent me a vision of somebody who seemed to be perfect to me, not for me to have, just to remind me that he exists somewhere in the world, so never to lower my standards and settle for less.




Maybe I'm just not ready to meet him yet, and I am fine with that.

I love being single, but it's nice to know that an amazing boy who inspires me and I had genuine fun with exists, is out there, living his life while I live mine.



Eventually is fine, so long as its not never.







I let one person inspire me so much in one day.
Take what you learn and it's time to kiss goodbye a certain heartache and let it go.







Peace, Xo






PS; And, if by chance, this particular boy somehow stumbles across this, and realizes it's about him;
Hello! Thankyou for everything you taught me, one of which was to tell people how you feel or they will never know; No doubt I'm not the first person you have inspired to change their life and I won't be the last. The world needs more people like you! I hope our paths do cross again, but if I never see you again, I'm just glad I got to meet you. Xo

Triple J Hottest 100 voting; time to get our snobby opinions on.

Oh, I voted for Triple J's Hottest 100 yesterday.



I love voting, not because I am a music snob (like most that vote on Triple J religiously every year) but because when I go through the list, there is SO much I've never heard of, so I spend hours YouTube-ing random songs and bands because I might like the name, or it just stands out.

And just like that, new music.


Here was my top 10;

Grouplove - Itchin' On A Photograph

Gypsy & The Cat - Parallel Universe

The Kooks - Junk Of The Heart (Happy)

The Jezabels - Endless Summer

Washington - Holy Moses

Florence & The Machine - Shake It Out

Foster The People - Don't Stop

Friendly Fires - Hawaiian Air

Architecture In Helsinki - Escapee

Yuksek - On A Train

Usually I pick songs that have some kind of meaing to me and my year. For example; Grouplove was one of the first albums I got when I moved into my new house, and I had an extremely bare room, so their poster was the only bit of colour I could bring to it.

At the beginning of the year I made a goal for myself to start my CD collection again, Architecture in Helsinki was one of the albums I bought while working in the city next to JB Hi Fi, I would go in every lunch break and literally stand at the CD table for an hour and pick out music to take home.

I picked The Jezabels as my number one.

It reminds me of my friends and my home town. It makes me happy and sad all at once.







Enjoy.
Xo

taken by the wind.

I am sick today.

I thought yesterday that I had hay fever, and woke up this morning with an awful flu.. Not the best way to start a three day weekend.



So, I've spent the better part of the day sleeping, a small part making occasional trips to my kitchen to boil water to make chamomile tea with honey, and a huge part watching old feel-good girly movies.

12:23am


Of course sleeping all day has set my sleeping pattern backwards, so I'm in for a long late night of much too many thoughts going through my mind.


That is where you come in, my lovely little internet blog where I spill it all, Thank god for you.


(I hate to think about the small section of the Amazon jungle I took from filling out my notebooks for so many years)













I am feeling trapped tonight.
(No doubt because I've been confined to my teeny tiny bedroom for over 24 hours)

Trapped in the way that I can't just get up and leave where I am if I wanted too.

Not that I do actually want too; But I like the option.



Since I've moved to Melbourne, I've been all about going out and embracing this new world I've moved too, meeting new people and having as much fun as possible.

I've completely succeeded.

Since being here I've met the most amazing people I didn't know existed and learned amazing things about myself I most certainly did not know.

I've had fun since being here.
And we all know, fun ain't free these days.

I moved here with around $50.
Since working full time I've saved around $50.

I used to be amazing at saving my money, but I just can't seem to justify saving at the moment.
Before I moved here, I always had a goal, something to save up for.
Now I don't.
My goal now is living in the moment, so in saying that, I'm spending everything in the moment.


And all of a sudden, thoughts of wanting to up and leave are coming flooding back (as they do every few months) and I've realized that there is no possibility I could go anywhere, if I really wanted too.
I'm stuck.











Lets just recap on something;
I love Melbourne so much, I don't actually want to leave.
I guess I just feel like the wind should have taken me somewhere else by now.







(drawing I did last August, it was a tattoo I wanted to get, the last time I felt like leaving)








Something to think about.

new years resolutions.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I love welcoming in a new year, it always leaves me with a feeling like I have every chance in the world to go for and achieve anything I want too!

I also love January, its my favorite month because everyone, even people like me who work full time, goes into holiday mode and is so relaxed and so keen to have fun.

It's like the 6 week break we all got in school never really leaves our subconscious!




I have a few New Year's Resolutions of course;




One is to learn an instrument.

Sounds silly but I am ALWAYS learning something, whether it be Spanish, French or sign language, I always NEED to be doing something!
I adore people who can play music, and since I've been all about inspiring myself lately, I'm putting aside the Spanish dictionarys this year!





Another is to get some kind of direction in life...

A tough one, but I want to figure out what it is I am passionate about and do something about making it a part of my life.





I also want to volunteer more.

I had a massive talk/break down/epiphany to one of my best friends about this a few months back, I don't feel like I am giving anything back, and I am the kind of person who always needs to be doing something, having something to focus on (is it obvious?) So why not help the world?
And, if not the whole world, somebodies world?




And lastly, I want to stay single.

Only reason for this one is that all those other resolutions will be forgotten about if I fall head over heels for someone! (God knows its happened before!)
I need to take a good amount of time to just be me, to show the world everything I am!




I'll report back at the end of this year, unless the world ends of course.