Sometimes I just can't find my own words

I get overwhelmed easily.

That's why music gets me I guess. Tonight I've been listening to a band I have loved since I stumbled across on MySpace at the ripe age of 16; The Spill Canvas.



I am having one of those nights where music just speaks to you. (I think I may feel like this every day?)



So, I thought I would share a few old favorites that stand out tonight;

3685 is, bluntly, a break up song. It explains two people who have ended a loving relationship, and there is nothing toxic and nasty between them, they are simply saying thankyou for the time we spent together, but our time is up and we must be moving forward. Towards the end of the song Nick says he finds a new girl who "easily towers over you" which is a little brutal for a lovely song. But it speaks to me all the same I guess.


I just came out of a four year relationship.

I don't feel the need to get into details tonight, But although the breakup was horrific and I was very heartbroken, in the end, I knew in my heart our time was over.
We were very much in love and I like that in the end we could both respect that. I think this is the most beautiful type of break up - one that looks at the time as a wonderful snippet of life shared between two people, and says goodbye, and walks forward as individuals onto bigger and better things.

I still maintain that we were soul mates at the time that we were together. But souls grow up too, and ours grew apart. That doesn't make the time we spent together any less significant.

The Spill Canvas - 3685.
Enjoy.



Its as if they are the soundtrack to my life.


When I was in love, I would cry almost every time I heard the next song I am going to post. It had so much meaning to me.
This song is about being in love, and how it absolutely rocks you to your core. Being so in love it hurts. In the happy days of my past relationship this is absolutely how I felt, so I could connect to such an intense level.


I have been thinking lately, I don't know if I'll ever feel that intensely again, as it was my first love. So hearing this songs reminds me that it was real.

When people break up, they tend to only focus on the bad that came out in the end.
This song takes me back to a time when I had another person who meant so much to me I would have taken a bullet for them. I had a soul mate, and not many people can say they had what we had. You only had to see us together in the early days to know we were best friends in every way.
As I said, I know we have grown apart and are no longer perfect for each other, we certainly were each others everything back then, and this song takes me back to that time.
Even as I listen to the song now, I find it hard to even explain how in love I was, it was so intense a feeling.

The Spill Canvas - So Much
(try not to cry)






(I must stress at this point, that there certainly were ugly points in our breakup, just so when I hop on here later with a massive session about him, which is no doubt inevitable, you are not taken by surprise. Realistically, its my good attitude that got me through and to the appreciative point I am at now)
And just for kicks I thought I would add this next one to my post too, so its not all about my egotistic ass of an ex boyfriend. His head doesn't need to be any bigger ;)

The Spill Canvas - Tik Tok (Ke$ha cover)




So there you have it, my favorite band of all time, and a few of their many songs that speak to me on such a deep level, at all stages of my life. (I quite literally had to stop myself at 2, and post the Ke$ha cover because I knew it wouldn't be followed up with a rant about how ticking clocks 'speak' to me!)

Although I live in fear that Triple J will start to play them and then the worst will happen; my teeny boppy clothing store would start to play them alongside other previous underground bands that "used to be cool", but the boys, in particular their front and founding man Nick Thomas, deserve so much more credit than what they get, and if they ever came to Australia, I would make myself available for any candlelit dinners and desert by serenade they would like to accompany me too ;)

Failing that, I would just like to thank them for giving me a constant and beautiful soundtrack to my life. Muchos grazias chicos.