Boy, has it been a year already?
I started this blog a year ago.
I
started it during a time of huge transition for me, when I was just beginning
to discover whom I really was in this big wide world all on my own.
(I know, 22 seems a little old to be
starting anew, but circumstance held my journey of self-discovery back a few
years)
I started it with the intent of bearing all
to the world to show why I am the way I am.
To be honest, I’ve certainly left a lot out
and sometime focused on things that were entirely irrelevant, but every now and
again I came true to what I originally promised.
(And, to be fair, I've been wildly distracted for the most part, a stupid meaningless relationship and uni kept me pretty occupied for a fair while)
I’ve always known my attitude towards
everything that’s happened to me in my tiny life has been extraordinary. I
don’t feel conceited or overbearing admitting it either. I am proud and lucky
to see the world the way I see it.
I am so blessed with the ability to see the
positive side of what I have been through and for years everyone (including
myself) thought this was a coping mechanism and one day the wall in my mind
would break down.
Its actually recently come to my attention
that a few people think this attitude, and to clarify what that means;
my entire personality at that, is to be blunt, FAKE.
This doesn't bother me all that much, like I said, for so long even I thought it was a coping mechanism.
Since last year, since focusing purely on
myself, I’ve learnt that it wasn’t a coping mechanism at all.
I was honestly and luckily blessed with my
happy and thankful attitude.
I have never minded telling people about my
life, when the details don’t affect others.
I don’t seek sympathy from people
who ask how my father passed away, or why I no longer have my Mother in my
life.
I tell them the truth (where appropriate) and I tell them the truth about
how it has affected me.
I think if people see how I see it, they'll understand how I think. Which is nice.
I don’t talk about it if people don’t ask
and when people ask, I tell them. Simple.
Well, Happy One Year Anniversary Gypsy Tales, I've been anything but a gypsy this year, but its been fun. Here's to another year, hopefully full of more adventures.
To everyone that has read this and shared it, thanks so much. I started this because I wanted a typed up record of everything I wrote down, journals got too messy! And for a blog that I don't promote with link words or labels at all (like I'm pretty sure you're meant too!) except every now and again on facebook to have the amount of views this does makes me happy.
So much love.
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